My Decision

 

In my mind you became this vile creature

Who wanted to have his nasty way with me

And all the desire

Which had been denied for way too long

Wanted to unleash itself

Would I let it

I don’t know.

Not Tarnished

Maybe you don’t know

How to look after precious things

And even though I showed you

Maybe you didn’t want to learn.

Room Mates

So he moved in
Left his dirty laundry on the floor
And funnily enough
He slowly disappeared
The more I needed him
The less he came home

He kept me hooked
By talking about our future
About getting married
Having children
And growing old together

Of course it never happened
Although I had done enough believing
For the both of us.

Run Away

You let go ever so slightly

You made a misstep

Enough to let me know you doubted what we’d done

And I was glad

Because it was the excuse I needed

To run away from these new feelings I wanted

But didn’t want.

In The Air

 

You blew in

Like a summer breeze

And settled around me.

Awful

And I thought I would delight in shutting you out

But I had fantasies of you having your nasty way with me

The more repellent I found you

The more I wanted you.

How, Why?

 

You kept asking me

So I kept showing up

I needed to be led on this new adventure

In the beginning you were bold

I wish you’d held onto that

But, I think once you had me

You didn’t know what to do with me

I tried to tell you

I tried to show you

But I think it was too much

I think you were scared.